I'm learning all of these tricks lately- getting some ideas as to how to manage the entire MS mess- so many things to watch, to lose, to monitor, all the accessories and accoutrements, finding and refining my routines.
I'm a creature of habit. I do well with change within the change itself, but if you tell me change is coming I'll dread it, and after the change has arrived and I've made it through the heat of the moment I am immediately looking for my new patterns. It's part of an obsessive nature (my obsessive nature); I am always looking for ways to more perfectly line up all my shoes, and the chaos of major change is a prime opportunity for that sort of thing.
Setting new habits is a process which starts out with looking like no process at all: I watch, and notice, and note. I move something, watch some more, move it again: it begins looking like like a complete mess, but I try to form my patterns around problems instead of forcing everything into a rigid, preplanned structure that might turn out to be useless. Most of the process is relaly just in observation.
Some things I've observed recently:
- Fatigue is not weakness, it is a medical condition and the only cure is rest. Also, related: fatigue does not play fair in Feats Of Strength.
- If you wouldn't eat somewhere, taking pills there is unhygenic and there is NO WAY I'm doing a shot there.
- People say stupid things because they don't know better. It is usually not their fault. This does not mean I have to put up with it.
- Going into my bedroom and seeing all my drugs laid out on my dresser makes me feel like an invalid, and that makes me pretty damned crazy- pants.
- I hate anyone watching me inject. I wouldn't mind teaching someone how to take a sub- cut shot, but otherwise, can I have a little privacy, please?
- It is not silly to have frilly accessories to drugs. Taking my pills out of my little bluebird dish makes me happy.
- If I want to call it "shooting up," I will and you, Mr. -Shared- Solutions- guy- who- doesn't- take- injectable- medication, you can quit that lecture RIGHT. NOW. I'll call it "riding the goddamned ferris wheel" if I want to, because while it may not be pretty, it is all mine. Stop fucking calling me if you don't appreciate my language; I certainly do not appreciate yours.
- I do not have to be pleasant because I am sick. I will try to play nice with others, but it's okay to have cranky days, and if people are unpleasant they'll get the appropriate response.
- Cats and cakes make everything better. If cats fail, go for the mixer, which is a long way of saying try cats first, then cakes.